if there's anything i can change in this world, i will change myself first.

i keep quiet not because i don't know what to say. i say things only to make you feel superior. you really make me want to do so. so do you still think you are very smart now? hah. i know you must be thinking that i suck cos i am stupid and never get what you say. anything. i hope you get the "wrongest" impression about me. then that gives a good reason to heck care about you. i really don't like you. i know you don't too. so don't act like you can accept me. cos you never can and never will. my close friend once commented that i have an extremely weird frequency. i know it myself too. i know it really does take years for me to accept a person as my friend. cos i know i cannot seem to match my frequency with others'. i tried hard to change. but i failed. i would say i feel more comfortable with my own sort of frequency. i know most of you don't like it. i can't help it anyway.